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How I took control of my mental health treatment

2 min read
17 May 2021

When I first attended CAMHS at 13 years old, I remember feeling anxious. I didn’t want to be there, although my parents could see that I hadn’t been my usual self for a while. I was struggling with eating, my mood was constantly low, and I was having panic attacks when I left the house. Upon reflection they were right - I did need support.

As a black teenager, I often felt misunderstood. This was sometimes the case at CAMHS too, especially in the relationship I had with my CAMHS team. I struggled to talk openly which sometimes meant that there was friction between us. At the time it felt like I was attending appointments that I didn’t want to be at, with no option for anything else. I felt frustrated and sometimes ignored.

This changed when my local CAMHS created a children and young person’s focus group. Initially I felt extremely nervous at the thought of taking part but, after encouragement from my doctor, I signed up. I am so glad I did - this has been one of the best decisions I have made.

It felt like I was attending appointments that I didn’t want to be at, with no option for anything else. I felt frustrated and sometimes ignored

I attended evening meetings after school with other young people and the participation worker. We discussed many things, from the displays in the waiting room and using recycled paper for letters, to the support that we would like to see available for us and other young people. It was great to work together and have our voices heard and opinions valued. Seeing the displays that we created and letters printed on the paper we chose felt extremely rewarding. Although it may seem small, it really boosted my self-esteem.

I had other opportunities to develop new skills, like when my local NHS trust provided me with interview skills training. Myself, the participation worker and some of the friends I made at the focus group travelled together to the training course. We had pizza, learnt new communication skills and took part in team building-exercises, which built our confidence. Soon after, I was on an interview panel with a doctor and psychologist - asking some questions, working together and deciding who should get the job! I never imagined that I would be able to do anything like that.

It was great to work together and have our voices heard and opinions valued.

During my transition from CAMHS to adult mental health services, I worked alongside my team to create a new care plan that worked for me. I spent time with the team so they could get to know me as a person and we could talk about the things I valued, which helped us come up with goals that worked for me and what I wanted to achieve. Over time I became better equipped to make decisions about my own treatment and to discuss the risks and benefits of different treatment options. It was on this foundation that I built a trusting relationship with my team, where I not only felt listened to but understood.

Where to get help

Where to get help

  • YoungMinds Textline

    Text YM to 85258.

    Provides free, 24/7 text support for young people across the UK experiencing a mental health crisis.

    All texts are answered by trained volunteers, with support from experienced clinical supervisors.

    Texts are free from EE, O2, Vodafone, 3, Virgin Mobile, BT Mobile, GiffGaff, Tesco Mobile and Telecom Plus.

    Texts can be anonymous, but if the volunteer believes you are at immediate risk of harm, they may share your details with people who can provide support.

    Opening times:
    24/7
  • The Mix

    Offers support to anyone under 25 about anything that’s troubling them.

    Email support available via their online contact form.

    Free 1-2-1 webchat service available.

    Free short-term counselling service available.

    Opening times:
    3pm - 12am, seven days a week
  • Childline

    If you’re under 19 you can confidentially call, chat online or email about any problem big or small.

    Sign up for a free Childline locker (real name or email address not needed) to use their free 1-2-1 counsellor chat and email support service.

    Can provide a BSL interpreter if you are deaf or hearing-impaired.

    Hosts online message boards where you can share your experiences, have fun and get support from other young people in similar situations.

    Opening times:
    24/7

Thanks for sharing your story Josephine

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