Feeling out of control
There are many different ways we might feel out of control.
You might find yourself doing things that you don’t want to do over and over again. Even though you want to stop doing these things, you may find that you just can’t seem to stop. This could look like:
- performing rituals over and over again because they make you feel safe and you experience extreme anxiety if you don’t do them (this can be a sign of OCD)
- addiction to anything – like drugs, alcohol, gaming, social media, sex
- binge-eating or changing your eating habits
Usually we get into this cycle because we are trying to avoid a difficult feeling. Sometimes when it feels like we don't have any power in our lives or control over our circumstances, we can focus extra hard on the things we can control. This can give us a way to cope in a world where we might not be getting the support we need.
These habits or addictions can give us a sense of relief or a way to avoid difficult feelings. But this relief is only temporary, because sooner or later those difficult feelings come back and we feel like we need to do that thing again. This cycle can feel hard to break out of, but with the right support you can get through this.
You might be going through something that feels very strange, out of the ordinary, and possibly quite frightening. For example:
- not being sure what is real and what isn’t - for example, hallucinating, hearing voices or feeling like someone else is controlling your body (these can be signs of psychosis)
- experiencing extreme mood swings (this can be a sign of bipolar disorder)
- having manic episodes, which can involve talking a lot, racing thoughts, over-confidence and increased activity
- uncontrollable urges to self-harm, or to harm other people
Sometimes feeling out of control can be very frightening, especially if we are worried that we might harm ourselves or others. Remember, what you are going through is nothing to be ashamed of.
We all react differently to life’s challenges and the way we react to things when we are unwell can seem confusing to other people. But just because you are experiencing something that feels strange does not make you ‘crazy’.
If your experiences and behaviours mean that you might be in danger of harm, or harming others, you might have to go into hospital for treatment.
We know this can be scary, but we have lots of information and advice that may help.
Things that can really help
Talk to someone
Let someone know if you feel unsafe or you start to feel like you are out of control. They can help ground you and talk through how you are feeling.
Speak to your GP
Your GP can discuss different things you can do to get better, like having counselling or taking medication, and they can arrange for you to get the help you need.
Find creative ways to express yourself
Sometimes it can be hard to express ourselves in words. If you’re struggling to say what you’re feeling, it can help to try expressing yourself in other ways, like through art or dance.
Be kind to yourself – It’s always important to look after ourselves, but that’s especially the case when we’re going through a tough time. Try to make time to do things you enjoy, and celebrate your achievements, no matter how small.
If things get really tough for you, you might have to go into a hospital so that you can get better. This might seem daunting, but we have lots of information on what to expect and what your rights are, as well as real stories from other young people who’ve been there.